Day 09 — A photo you took

well, actually it was supposed to be a photo that makes you angry/sad. I don't have any pics that make me angry/sad. I was going to post one of the baby because it makes me sad she isn't here. But those pics also make me happy.

So, here's a photo I took.

I love it. It's at our goddaughters baptismal. M held her almost the whole time! He's such a baby hog. :)

1 year ago today...

I got the best news. I was late and had taken a pregnancy test a few days before but it was negative. So, I took one again but looked at the results too soon. M asked what it was and I said it's a no. He wanted to see it (for some odd reason) and when I went to get the test...there were two lines. BUT it had been about 15 minutes so I know I couldn't go off those results. We hauled ass to Target and got a trusty digital.
When we got home, I took the test right away. I wrapped it up in tp and handed it to M. I tell you...the smile he got when he looked at the results could light up a room. I will never forget that moment.

My Mary:
I was talking to you last night and I hoped you can hear me. I hung up your cross that was on your casket and slept with your bear again. (well, I do that pretty much every night) Last night was pretty tough but I am a little better today. I reminded your daddy what today would be too. He is amazed how many dates I can remember, but I know them all. I know your first ultrasound, your first flutter/kick, etc. I also remember the first time I got sick with morning sickness. Good grief, that was tough. I had it about a week after i found out about you until the week before you were born. EVERYDAY. ALL DAY. But you were worth it.
Miss you lots and lots. xoxoxo

Mommy

in a funk

I am going to give the 30 day blog challenge a rest, although it's looking bad already. :)

I am just in a funk this week...I got a really important date/reminder coming up this Friday and I am just trying to get through this week.

Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy

This is a picture of my great aunt blessing me right before I got married. I love it, yet it's bittersweet because a few weeks before I got married, my grandma passed away. She would have been there doing this. But when my great aunt arrived from New Mexico, I asked her to please do it. It was really hard since my grandma was gone but I am so happy my aunt was there for me.

Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy

I have already posted one of my fave quotes for the moment so moving on...whatever tickles my fancy.
M cooking. Man...he can cook. Like he should be on a cooking show. I, on the other hand, suck. I love that he loves to try new things but can make even simple things like spaghetti taste awesome. He even made tamales with the family (well, the women) last year. He wanted to learn so he did it. LOVE.

My heart is happy...

even if it's for the moment.
I came across a painting I saw on another blog awhile ago. This person (who is amazing by the way) has also suffered a loss, about two weeks after Mary. I fell in love with it. I couldn't stop looking at it. At first, I was wondering why but then it hit me. This painting WAS Mary. But at the same time this little girl symbolizes so much more, to so many others.
I contacted the artist and ordered a print. I can't WAIT! The artist is also an amazing, talented woman. I can tell already I am going to be purchasing more from her in the future.

It's the fourth one down...called "mine for a moment." Isn't that beautiful and such a fitting title?

http://www.theartistoflife.com/blog/paintings/

Day 04 — Your favorite book

I am not a big reader, but I will have to say right now it's the Sookie Stackhouse series. Love the True Blood show, but I think the books are great too.
When I was a kid, I LOVED the Beverly Cleary books. Ramona Quimby! I was just talking to my sister today about sending our 7 year old niece those books. I can't believe she will start reading those now!

Day 03 — Your favorite television program

Currently, it's Cougar Town. I love it.
When I was a kid, you couldn't move me away from the TV when the Simpsons were on. Seriously.

Day 02 — Your favorite movie

oh man...there are so many, just like songs!
So, I can't list just one. :)

Tombstone: Don't watch it with me...I will quote the whole thing

A Bronx Tale: You wouldn't even have to watch this movie...my cousin and I can re-enact every scene for you.

Casino: I Love Vegas.

Day 01 — Your favorite song

I have so many! But the one that I always sing to when it's on (and it drives M crazy!) is "Today was a Good Day" by Ice Cube. I know all the words and as soon as it comes on I have to turn it up. :)

blogging challenge

30 Day Blogging Challenge
Stolen from my friend Jennifers blog...I sometimes suck at blogging so this will help. :)

Day 01 — Your favorite song
Day 02 — Your favorite movie
Day 03 — Your favorite television program
Day 04 — Your favorite book
Day 05 — Your favorite quote
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

rainy day

So, it's been raining all morning. I can't wait for spring! The only good thing about rain is that it makes you want to stay in bed and do nothing all day. But I get too antsy for that! I have to get up and do something! We were going to go to the cemetery today but I think we will do it tomorrow instead. I bought Mary some cute little spring decorations and going to get some flowers...maybe tulips. When graduation for the high schools is closer, we will get a lei. We wanted to do that when she got her headstone, but it's kind of hard to find one in the middle of the winter.

a perfect quote

Dear Lord, I would have loved to have held my baby on my lap and tell her about you, but since I didn't get the chance, would you please hold her on your lap and tell her about me?