Sunday, February 21, 2010

My new tattoo


The picture in the header above is M's arm. He got it a few months after Mary passed away. It's so beautiful and it was something he wanted to do for himself, and of course his little girl.

We have been talking about me going to get one for a few months now. I already have two other tattoos so it's not like I am new to them. But I was always hesitant. A few days ago, he told me that right after work, we were going to the shop and getting me one. I knew I wanted a turtle with her name. Turtles would have been in her nursery whether she was a boy or a girl. So, I took some of the design on his other arm and let the artist get creative. (oh, it hurt...like bad)

I wish things were different and I didn't have to get this tattoo.

But she was worth it.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Monday, February 15, 2010

Nope, not this month

maybe next month.
Sometimes I get a little worried and think that maybe Mary was our last chance. We know there is not a physical reason why I can't get pregnant. Hello, 4 times. But then I worry that something happened and now it will be either harder to get pregnant or it's just not going to happen. I can't believe it's going to be 7 months soon. Sooner then I like, July 31st wil be here. My little girls birthday. These months are going by too fast.